Anonymous: Hey Jomatto! Have you ever let your RL friends read your fanfics or your tumblr posts? Have you ever felt weird'd out by it? Sometimes I would think about "Curiosity Screwed the Cat" and how Sora isn't what he really seems in person compared to RL. I've... always wanted to write but I haven't found the courage to commit. If I made it public, would the people around me judge me? It's what I've always been, so to speak, curious about.
In the past, I’ve always thought of Jomatto as a different personality, but as I’ve grown older, the line is getting blurrier. I told one of my oldest friends about my Tumblr and he checked it out. He told me that it was a poor man’s version of meeting me in real life. Take that however you will.
I’ve always thought of myself as a better writer than speaker, although there have been rare occasions that I could turn it on in front of a crowd, but that’s mostly due to written preparation. I’m a writer through and through, and writing is the only way in which I feel like I’m truly expressing myself.
So if you’re comfortable with who you are, you’d want to show people your writing. I feel it’s a better representation of who I am than meeting me in person, even if my friends beg to differ.
The first time I really tackled writing was in high school, when MySpace was all the rage. Everybody in class befriended each other, and one of the things I noticed was the ability to blog and share it with everybody. So I took advantage of it. I got into writing specifically to show off.
There was one post in particular that my classmates liked, and it was about the first time I held a PSP. I described my experience playing Wipeout and used the term “mind orgasm.” That really resonated with my peers. Since then, I’ve been known as the guy who manages to say that one really profound statement in the midst of conversation. Hell, when I was in student government at UCI, they called it “Thanhisms.”
So to answer your question, I’m not embarrassed. I’m mostly flattered that they’d take time to actually read what I write.
Thanks for taking the time to write this! I checked back a day after I asked this question and was panicked I didn’t get a reply, but I’m happy I checked again!
I can relate to how you feel about your written self being your best self. Writing is the thoughts to my actions. They are my explanations. My true self.Which is why I find it frightening to have other people peer in.
Thank you again for your insight.